With the situation, and some meta-programming . . .
“In our two way nervous system, aware of both our inputs and outputs, we develop “self-awareness.” So more than just being able to think about ourselves, we are able to think about ourselves and adjust our actions accordingly. The chief problem is we tend not to realize experience has a cognitive modulation. As we develop an idea of the world, we develop an idea of ourselves at the same time; but its more more than just an idea, its more like a self-propagating configuration of experience, a node of programming control, ego.” (p.8)
The Domains of Perception, 1974-1984, Gerry Dubinski.
Eventually though, I also seen how this all resides within the “ground,” moving past your “externalizations:” we are in an intermediate zone, with intent and the figure/ground, the “Life World within the Greater World.” Stage 2 now!
The Third Attention next! . . . lol !
My ideas have become full circle here. I was doing good; I got the western views, psychology/philosophy pinned down: but as far as self-development, maturity, dealing with the world, and relating to other systems goes, it took a long time. Now, for the further in-depth understandings . . . with the energetics in mind.
By considering the “body ego” here, its self-aware, but not too conceptual, or visionary, and I can see why certain elements keep occurring within this level. Why certain things happen at night within the body, or why people have their externalizing ways. The behaviorists consider behaviors or genetics . . . I was there! The visionary elements and energy is near to the physical body, and world, a close “overlay,” and “tiny,” like that similar closer extra body showing up when I was on the table . . . not that distant here? Why? What versions of intent can I have here?
There was another more distinct separate energetic body as well . . .
“Don Juan had explained to me that the dreaming body is sometimes called the “double” or the
“other” because it is a perfect replica of the dreamer’s body. It is inherently the energy of a
luminous being, a whitish, phantom like emanation which is projected by the fixation of the
second attention into a three-dimensional image of the body.” (p.29)
The Eagle’s Gift, Carlos Castaneda
Likewise, as far as that cocoon talk goes, that was quite the coincidence! I see how ultimately it is related to form and energy, intent and awareness opening up to a greater reality.
“The way of cowardice is to embed ourselves in a cocoon, in which we perpetuate our habitual patterns. When we are constantly recreating our basic patterns of behavior and thought, we never have to leap into fresh air or onto fresh ground.” (p.37)
“Therefore, our next topic is dealing with darkness. By darkness, we mean enclosing ourselves in a familiar world in which we can hide or go to sleep. It is as though we would like to re-enter our mother’s womb and hide there forever, so that we could avoid being born. When we are afraid of waking up and afraid of experiencing our own fear, we create a cocoon to shield ourselves from the vision of the Great Eastern Sun. We prefer to hide in our personal jungles and caves.” (p.37) (me . . .)
SHAMBHALA, The Sacred Path of the Warrior, CHÖGYAM TRUNGPA
“Don Juan had said that our total being consists of two perceivable segments. The first is the
familiar physical body which all of us can perceive. The second is the luminous body which is
a cocoon that only seers can perceive; a cocoon that gives us the appearance of giant luminous
eggs. He had also said that one of the most important goals of sorcery is to reach the luminous
cocoon; a goal which is fulfilled through the sophisticated use of dreaming, and through a
rigorous systematic exertion he called not-doing. He defined not-doing as an unfamiliar act
which engages our total being by forcing us to become conscious of its luminous segment “ (p.24)
“He called the smallest the first attention, and said that it is the consciousness that every
normal person has developed in order to deal with the daily world. It encompasses the
awareness of the physical body.” (p.24)
“Another larger portion he called the second attention, and described it as the awareness we
need in order to perceive our luminous cocoon and to act as luminous beings. He said that the
second attention remains in the background for the duration of our lives unless it is brought
forth through deliberate training or by an accidental trauma. He said the second attention
encompasses the awareness of the luminous body.” (p.24)
“He called the last portion, which was the largest, the third attention – an immeasurable
consciousness which engages undefinable aspects of the awareness of the physical and the
luminous bodies.” (p.24)
The Eagle’s Gift, Carlos Castaneda
We may have self-awareness here; but depending on our orientation, its whether we are bottom feeders or not. Attention, and energy, is drawn to the interface of these inputs and outputs; but one’s motivations and levels of development may be low-ended. To get attention and energy here, may be a battle, for those non-ascended, or not interconnected ones, as we are seeing at the coffee shop. Its not just self-esteem, its to “exist,” “be alive” in their particular way.The Way of the Warrior is to move beyond one’s darkness into one’s open mind, awakened heart, radiance! Did I hide here in here in this dark cocoon, or do battle with my second attention?
Intent always puts one into a more enhanced state, and energy comes from a more mutual interconnection, not from stealing it from someone else, as we see when those dark entities come popping in, with a “fixated second attention.” Intent also has the strength to move one though into the proper directions as well. In the past, I decided not to give big attention to your “games,” for it was getting my energy drawn into those directions. I got my multidimensional internal activations now . . . its me!
The old sorcerers are male; they blocked off the female ones, so you are seeing a lot of anger and competition here. I took the females from them.
Besides getting iv’s at the hospital bed, the emergent entity gave me a big load of energy as well. Then they wonder how I pulled through.
Considering “me” as a starting point, not being drawn into those external issues . . . though there is still those multifaceted elements encompassing me, and the ground! There was an intrinsic focus within me, with a version of myself ahead, moving along. In one case it looked like I was moving through this surf of strange bubbles, maybe like plastic. Another version was like I had tattoos all over my large arms, with some strings of hair hanging down.
I was trying to consider the more global situation. I was walking along with Jamie, Desiree and Doug who were next to me across the street. Jamie moved over and slipped me this shiny golden coin. In another episode it was like I was handling and evaluating the round tray from a microwave. These circular elements are important symbols.
I was flying along into a modern “space” city, with a variety of buildings, all clear and clean.
Considering this more inner realm, of the body ego and mind, what can my perspective be, not by just staring at the given? My varied figure/ground orientations, becoming active . . . ? Lets say I’ve been applying my stage 2 methods here. From the “machine” to . . . ?
First person, second, even third . . . ? The space there can open up, become clearer, feel better, as things move around . . .
With doing the meditation thing, attending to one’s breath and orientating to the body, one can pull away from that distracting visual state and begin having another focus.
Found that messy guy . . . head to head . . . seemed happy and friendly . . .
Those women floating around, in a happy feeling way . . .
There was a variety of notable imagery. It was like I was bending over tying my shoes. It was all dark, but with gold pin-striping around everything . . . from sitting in the meditation? When I got into bed, there was an image of a box of cats looking at me.
Clear images/objects spontaneously emerging, but related. A white circular tower stretching into the heavens, the “Atlanteans,” with small groups of plants on it, here or there, after I was thinking about the girls.
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