My intrinsic nature, my extended Self . . .

Sounds good, but what if one doesn’t know everything? I went in there with that attitude, and realized there’s stuff there, things happening! All kinds of stuff, not just the bad. Something more complex is going on in there: I can feel the motion, flows, potential conscious directions!

Like that “old TV stuff,” with the indistinct picture, and the static: it was like I got a few new perspectives in on that, in a new dimensional way, like being next to a big bulge of that kind of energy, or like being in a downstairs room made with that stuff. Its funny to think that some deeper other portion of me wanted to activate that thought, theme.

I got a quick perspective of myself, as I might be in those spaces . . . shape, colored energies.

What if I suddenly decided I was going to see some nice digital static, like a big screen of that thereof?

The “circuitry” in that intermediate zone between the material world/body and mind/soul . . . the nervous system and brain, form and energy . . . flow . . . intelligence, awareness . . . Life!

They start with the body, for the rational mind is divisive . . . but I also worked in that intermediate way, for moving past that bottom feeder situation. My job . . .

Ah, I get it! Throughout time, I’ve been moving through various levels, the “hierarchy!” I may have been Freudian at first, then I became more “sociable,” adjusting my life to that stuff, and when I started to understand things, knowledge and self-actualization. Then I could say: “That’s not me, its only an externalization!” So, who are you?

With me finding “intentionality” with Colin Wilson, that’s when I went “undercover,” since I thought this didn’t fit in. These days I can explain it, and I’m aware of a variety of other traditional systems out there. I got my “psychoanalysis” here now.

So, people may set up their situations out there, an externalization, a “symbol,” as if that was me. I actually may be more interested in the more personal connections. Things happen there too. Also, what I believe reality is may be something else, as well. Once I was able to focus reality, I started having other standards, then I wasn’t too concerned in what you were doing.

Considering those bottom feeders and their situations, I may have done some “work.” Dad may have finally moved up a notch, for he was concerned, but in there, if not stuck; so I helped him too. A basic human image, but clear and fresh, then a more spiritual form, blue, a feather, flame.

I was cuddling with my cat Aurora, and I must of fell asleep. There was then this active mode in which I focused and saw, feeling, this alive furry little “blob” close to me, in its own unique space.

There was some “pull” from that external situation . . . it could of been in that direction; but I guess I thought my own intrinsic self was the way to be, in an expanding inner gaze, sense of body feelings, extended space.

Cognitively, the figure/ground takes one beyond just a separate ”choice” only. Its more like ”code,” a multifaceted activation, interconnected, leading oneself into further directions.

It can be just as abstract as anything else in our mind, our knowledge, creativity, and its part of an even greater orientation. This personal system of ours, interpretations of our worlds, is open to advancement. Who we are is really something more. Your games are pretty rudimentary.

One can move beyond the typical limits of interpretation, the typical nodes of the material world, physical body, and society, our “attachments,” ideas within that context. Its the further realm of Meaning here. The Life World within the Greater World, form and energy. There are those further modes, intrinsically, intent, with that ”second look” kicking in. Connection/interconnection and discernment.