When I look back at my old writings, now organized, I see hypothetically, I was right on. The new stages began once I saw and understood the “externalization,” and simultaneously, the Greater Modes of possible meaning, with the differences of “ways,” interpretations, occurring here, and the paths people were following, which were keeping me confused. The idea of “meaning” saved me, got me out of that social chaos.

So where I’m at: “An intrinsic self, entwined within the universe, in an interactive field of meaning and knowledge.”

A few old quotes . . .

In the seventies, I was enticed by a few ideas, that were around synchronously, like the rational and holistic brain, Tonal and Nagual, and Colin Wilson’s ideas on intentionality and the search for meaning. I got them in action now . . . for those who don’t know what I’m really up too. We touch the world with intent. The optimums lie in this direction. If we disconnect, or are unaware of this function, we may just move into the separate, rational position; but the basic intrinsic gestalt, field of meaning is still there. There are also patterns to this direction of intent, figure/grounds. These are our Life Worlds. But the Greater World, the full field of meaning, offers guidance, fills in the gaps, adds direction. It has more knowledge, wisdom, overseeing all the patterns. There is an evolving interaction possible here.

Out of this, I eventually managed to find to develop an approach . . . “intent and figure/ground, the Life World within the Greater World.”

“ . . . what the denizens of few-dimensioned zones call change is merely a function of their consciousness, which views the external world from various cosmic angles. As the Shapes produced by the cutting of a cone seem to vary with the angles of cutting–being circle, ellipse, parabola or hyperbola according to that angle, yet without any change in the cone itself–so do the local aspects of an unchanged–and endless reality seem to change with the cosmic angle of regarding. To this variety of angles of consciousness the feeble beings of the inner worlds are slaves, since with rare exceptions they can not learn to control them. Only a few students of forbidden things have gained inklings of this control, and have thereby conquered time and change. But the entities outside the Gates command all angles, and view the myriad parts of the cosmos in terms of fragmentary change-involving perspective, or of the changeless totality beyond perspective, in accordance with their will.”

H. P. Lovecraft. Through the Gates of the Silver Key by H. P. Lovecraft (Halcyon Classics) (p. 19). Halcyon Press Ltd.. Kindle Edition.

Sunday, December 19, 1999

We’re more than a sliver of a self that has a repressed part . . . with the problem of differentiation and the social adjustment. (Typical of our level of development.) There’s a higher function, higher adjustment. Moving with the totality of our functioning. There’s other ways.

You could say there is an aspect of self, which we normally consider as ourself, involved in a certain focus/reality. There’s another higher-up aspect of self that’s aware of it, and other possibilities. This is where the potentials of a wider reality or consciousness is possible. The knowledge, guidance we can encounter here in this greater realm. Not just dream symbols, feelings; but the synchronicity, experiencing and knowing in another way.

We direct our attention along certain paths; and consequently, live within certain limits. There’s been two implications about this that fascinate me: there’s a wholeness, completeness to us, beside this; and also, an aspect of self that isn’t stuck within this mold. We have potential!
This little self could fall asleep, relax, be put out of commission through hypnosis, or be undeveloped, then the strange abilities of the wider consciousness can emerge. (Our classical.) Yet, there is still an awareness that can persist despite this little self’s disappearance, especially if you know some higher functions.

Monday, December 20, 1999

Our experience is various subsets of our totality . . . drawn to our bodily consciousness, our physical situation, our needs, etc.

A superimposition upon a truer reality, as Shankara says. We try to organize things; but its part of a larger encompassing system. Our true self, true reality is there. This may be the highest organizing principle.

You could say . . . in ego development, differentiation, we move from the true self to an ego orientation, then body,  (Shankara) . . . various subsets of our totality. Meditation, for instance, can take you the other way . . . “moved from the entanglements of body, society, personality . . .”
We differentiate down from the ground, the true self. We’re not separate individuals, but figures within the ground. Energy is tied up in these patterns. The point is we’re not stuck here; at this point, we have our empowerment. We can go the other way, become more. Our higher self connection that’s manifest in various ways.

Though, originally, I began with the basic levels of psychology, as all do all systems.

Powell, A. E.. The Astral Body and Other Astral Phenomena . Muriwai Books. Kindle Edition.

I got both these two levels of body, reality, and identity in now. Like I said, I wanted to consider the levels, for subconsciously I had the basic one defined before hand, before I worked on these newer ones! Lol!

“In brief, Kâma-Manas is the personal self of man: Lower Manas gives the individualising touch that makes the personality recognise itself as “I.” Lower Manas is a ray from the immortal Thinker, illuminating a personality. It is Lower Manas which yields the last touch of delight to the senses and to the animal nature, by conferring the power of anticipation, memory and imagination.”

Powell, A. E.. The Astral Body and Other Astral Phenomena . Muriwai Books. Kindle Edition.

– Between the stimulus and realization, there is sensation, feeling, energy . . .

– Then discrimination, knowledge, action . . . “awareness” . . .

“His contention was that human beings are not only capable of seeing energy directly as it flows in the universe, but that they actually do see it, although they are not deliberately conscious of seeing it.” (p. 70)

Carlos Castaneda The Active Side of Infinity

– We can also move along consciously here . . . knowledge, creativity . . .

– Sub-sets of our totality, distinctions, abstractions . . . “self-awareness” . . .

“The shamans of ancient Mexico found out,” he replied, “that every part of the human body is engaged, in one way or another, in turning this vibratory flow, this current of vibration, into some form of sensory input. The sum total of this bombardment of sensory input is then, through usage, turned into the system of interpretation that makes human beings capable of perceiving the world the way they do.” (p.5)

Magical Passes,   Carlos Castaneda

Even our current psychology says this sensory input is moved up to attention first, then interpreted.

– Become multifaceted, and alignment with the greater consciousness . . .

1. The pre – egoic stage. This stage, which will also be called the stage of the body – ego, is the stage of pre – Oedipal childhood. It is distinguished by: ( 1 ) a predominantly somatic, instinctual, and ( polymorphously ) sensuous character; ( 2 ) intimacy with the maternal
presence, understood in both outer ( parental ) and inner ( dynamic, archetypal ) senses; ( 3 )openness both to the world without and to the deepest sources of life within; ( 4 ) dynamically charged experience; ( 5 ) a sense of the numinous; and ( 6 ) a creative but crude cognitive life,
conducted in the medium of concrete images.

2. The egoic stage . This stage, which will also be called the stage of the mental ego, is the stage that by far is of the longest duration. Commenced very early in life ( during what Freud called the latency period ), the egoic stage is consolidated near the end of adolescence, after which, for most people, it continues in more or less stable fashion until the end of life. Principal among the features of the egoic, or mental – egoic, stage are: ( 1 ) a deeply underlying repressive infrastructure, which insulates the mental ego from the dynamic unconscious, and therefore also from the Dynamic Ground; ( 2 ) a predominantly mental and anti-physical, anti – instinctual character; ( 3 ) apparent ego independence, self – control, autonomous command of will; ( 4 ) a developed personality, shaped in response to social roles, norms, and values; ( 5 ) secondary process or formal operational cognition; and, in the later phases of its unfolding, ( 6 ) a sense of emptiness and alienation together with a corresponding impetus toward transcendence.

3. The transegoic stage . This stage, which will also be called the stage of integration, is a stage that usually begins in those cases in which it does, begin  only in the middle or later years of life . The first turn toward the transegoic or integrated stage typically is expressed in the form of
a conversion experience. The conversion presages spiritual awakening ( i.e., the reopening of the Dynamic Ground ) and, thereby, the initiation of a process of psychic reorganization that, if seen through to the end, culminates in a higher synthesis of psychic resources. Principal among
the features of the transegoic, or integrated, stage are: ( 1 ) transcendence of the major dualisms that plague the mental ego – e.g ., the dualisms of mind and body, thought and feeling, logic and creativity, civilization and instinct, and, most basically, ego and Ground, and the
transformation of these dualisms into harmonious dualities, higher syntheses of opposites; ( 2 )rooting of the ego in the Ground and felicitous infusion of the ego by the Ground  ( 3 ) spiritual presence, charisma; ( 4 ) fully realized intuitive, contemplative, and creative capacities; ( 5 )
refound openness, dynamism, and spontaneity; and ( 6 ) an agapeic sense of love, kinship, and community.

Michael Washburn, The Ego and The Dynamic Ground, p. 4-5

– Matter and energy . . .

– Energy body . . . Etheric Double?

“It should be noted that ultimate physical atoms are of two kinds, male and female: in the male, force pours in from the astral world, passes through the atom and out into the physical world: in the female, force passes in from the physical world, through the atom, and out into the astral world, thus vanishing from the physical world.”

Powell, A. E.. The Astral Body and Other Astral Phenomena . Muriwai Books. Kindle Edition.

That was an interesting multi-leveled dream . . . from the typical to the enhanced . . .

From Late Latin astralis, from Latin astrum (“star”), from Ancient Greek ἄστρον (ástron, “star”).

Reconsidering the colloquial and generic levels, something you have been attempting to still draw me in to, I see that’s its not intrinsic, core, but something my crazy cousin could do, junior high school, the bar, as if that was the only me as well. Others aren’t really getting the results they want, for they don’t have the positive options anyways. Maybe those who learn are picking it up, like some who tried a few options. My newer ways can even start dealing with all of this lower stuff too: I can still feel those core movements within me, no matter what.

– Its all built-in . . . our psychology . . .

– Maslow’s hierarchy of needs, and the hierarchical nature of our nervous system and brain . . .

– We have ascending movements. Its good to work in the “higher manas,” intent and figure/ground, form and energy, though there could still be issues: I learned that years ago from John Lilly and his psychoanalytic work. I talk about “psychoanalysis.” Its not that hypothetical externalization stuff.

The series “House of the Dragon” may have inspired some imagery . . . a musical instrument’s neck, vertical, with its many strings and stops of various colors and shapes . . . some bigger medieval  dwelling, with some of its windows lit up.