I may have known about intent way back then; but I had no idea of the larger picture, interconnected modes; and I thought it might have only been the darkness. It seems this is where I got off on the wrong track for I was being separate. This may be the level of “divergence” you are looking for. These externalization symbols, ways, looking backwards, may be missing the real reason. But other more positive ways have been showing up in me.

I was thinking about how I may have directed my intent in the past: eventually considering I could just do a redo, i.e., apply my current ways in that direction, an investigation. A dream vision occurred, with an associated title, “The Full Panorama,” of a black TV screen, as if I was looking down at it from above. Later on during the night, it was if a more intelligent aspect of myself took this on again, and took it further. I seemed to be within a dark space, and I was wondering where the light was: as I twisted and turned around, I encountered this very bright grouping of lights, “The Office,” and was instructed that these control all that is going on around there. This would of been a bit further along in which I had another vision, dubbed “The Gate and the Tribe,” in which I saw a woman in a small lighted enclosure, making a movement. The office vision was more to the essence of the energy.

I was wondering how that one vision may be related to the idea of the “mold,” those dreams of digging down, finding those within dark containers, with that alarmed entity when I cut him out, and the other one that worked himself out. Or the dream in which I was scratching away at that stone, with the further transformation after that.

We’re looking for the possible ways forward here. The best I could do back then was use Maslow’s hierarchy of needs. I knew of intent; but I wasn’t much of a psychoanalyst. Eventually, I got a better evolving perspective, The Life World within The Greater World, and I was able to work within that. It gave me ways to look at things. Rather than just playing that game in separate mode, the ego thing, one can engage the next step, intent, and see the evolutionary, integrative directions.

Starting with an interesting Jungian dualistic interpretation, considering how he has the levels put out:

“No figure seems to know whence comes the individual, though Philemon says that the individual’s life is received from God. But, they do say that the individual is not from the earth, but fell from the “indeterminate,” plummeting from the stars. Crucially, the individual is sometimes referred to as a star seed. “

“In Philemon’s Sermons, based on the questions by the dead, Philemon describes beings largely in descending order of power. These beings include the highest God, the lesser Gods and devils, daimones, and half-daimones. Now, when it comes to the individual, according to Philemon, such is only one third his/her own nature, but two thirds daimonic. The individual is said to be Earth and belongs to the Earth, but is not of the Earth. Thus, the individual will never “incline to the law of the Earth.” It is through the individual that Phanes, the golden bird, arises, and the individual also serves as the vessel for a figure like Philemon to ascend. As this pertained to Jung, he was such a vessel for Philemon, and Philemon says of Jung that “Phanes is risen from you. He has evolved. He shines over you. Everything is accomplished.””

“The role that the individual must play gives some sense of why he/she, who is between the Upper and Lower, Mother and Father, the tips of the upward facing and downward facing cones, must make themself “strong and fireproof” (or perhaps also it is the role which makes the individual “strong and fireproof.”). Philemon says this of Jung which presumably applies to any individual of sufficient capability: “This man shall serve the opposites in renunciation. He shall humbly suffer the opposites. Therefore the mastery, the splendor, which is the mediator, comes to him. Who can bear this service? “

“Ka is Philemon’s shadow, as Philemon is Ka’s shadow. Ka is the one who says “I am he who buries the Gods in gold and gems.” and thereby gives form to the gods. Ka is the brother of the Buddha. Philemon is Ka’s herald, is the spiritual aspect and expresses “the meaning,” and unlike Ka who is eternal, Philemon is described as fleeting and one who passes on.”

Reflections on the New Religion in Jung’s Black Books After Philemon’s Septem Sermones: Part V (Final Part),The Individual and the Deepest Mystery: Love of and Hate for the Gods, Robert Juliano.

Then as far as that initial overall psychoanalytic generalization goes:

“These dialectical countermovements can be stated in the following more precise manner: ( 1) The body-ego gives initial, and very rudimentary, expression to both the nonegoic (e.g., somatic, instinctual, dynamic, numinous, creative) and egoic (e.g., organizing, controlling) dimensions of life (thesis). (2) The mental ego, in order to master rational thought and civilized behavior, then represses many nonegoic potentials, submerging them into unconsciousness (antithesis). Finally, (3) the integrated self, in order to surmount the one, sidedly abstract forms and repressive controls of the mental ego, then resurrects buried nonegoic potentials and allows these potentials to fuse with the mature structures and functions of the egoic sphere, thereby bringing into being an integrated whole that is greater than the sum of its egoic and nonegoic parts (synthesis). “ p. 6

THE EGO AND THE DYNAMIC GROUND: A Transpersonal Theory of Human Development, Michael Washburn, State University of New York Press, 1988.

So, there’s a couple of possible levels to psychoanalysis now, from the typical separate Freudian stage, to the more integrative, interconnective ones, dualism, triphasic. There’s a developmental issue here; its real: you don’t see it? Where are you really at? If its separate, you can externalize; and why are you trying to reapply it, as if this was all I am, for instance? I have a way too, that puts it all in perspective.

I have moved my direction up to: “We are selves entwined within the universe in an interactive field of knowledge and meaning.” By engaging my sensors into multifaceted mode, there were a few interconnections; i.e., its not just an image, but something I was feeling the connection with . . . some kind of golden nugget with two bulges on the end, then an upclose with a face and intercommunication. I even rolled out a big map to look at. This made me wonder if I could do this all the time.

First thing in the morning, the body wants to get active, if you know what I mean. It was like this chaotic scene with these guys complaining about the colors and throwing these yellow pik-up sticks. I could of avoided this; but I applied my attention to it: I got an image of bat man with a lighted colored belt. Many of us start at this basic energetic level, and the game is being played here, I realized; but even here there is further levels. An image of a woman’s head and shoulders also spontaneously popped in, her countenance defined by colors: I didn’t ask for that one.