So, I pretty much started with the idea that we “intend the world” . . . intentionality. We can then move from the apparent levels into the more intrinsic ones: that we are one with the universe, connected/interconnected, multifaceted, multidimensional. I got the Life World within the Greater world here, when we become more activated; and I’ve looked at it in many other ways now.

Even here I might of started at basic levels: we are the constructors . . . sexually, socially, mentally with the games people play, etc. Eventually I began to realize we are also within a field of meaning and knowledge: its why we are being pulled along by something greater. It gave me the reason why we dream, engage in various meanings; then I was able to move into more core levels, going past the generic belief systems. I finally made it into a position that made sense, what it is all about, rather then the ways you were playing it. That fourth level of Gurdjieff’s synchronously presented itself. We are “Selves entwined within the universe in an interactive field of meaning and knowledge,” as I put it.

We’re at the point of extended action and possible development here. Human potentiality! Human empowerment!

Even this is just the starting point, our psychology, the “energetics:” it can become much more esoteric, or Divine, for instance.

Its not just the shadows we are facing; but that Greater Reality and the encompassing Ground of our Being.

I’ve been touching upon even more interesting foci, a newer level, complete, even for me. Its like I’ve been pushing through my fuzziness into new encompassing locales of clarity. One was like being in a globular room of stained glass windows. There were these two sharp strong foci, as if I wanted to get going I guess: into the room next to me in darkness, but in full clarity; then looking at my bicycle in the hallway, with sparkling spots of color and light embedded within it all, making an elaborate artistic design.

One could consider the two directions as presented by Gurdjieff, one automatic, moved by external influences, like that substrate level, the immediate mind, of arising illusory form, pointed out by Holecek; or the reverse, the one coming from Allah, all positive, intelligent, of light. There is that intermediate realm, which could be all mixed up, educational, in which intent becoming activated can sort it out . . . conscious Self-Actualization.

I was having an issue, I had to focus on Yvonne only; but that was the real situation! So, all kinds of other things could be considered: they are the real contexts, situations. My intent roamed and grabbed on to various things because of this realization. Why I realized I could have the two directions in operation at any one time.

Yvonne’s talk of spirits brought them in . . . some black in a group walking by me, looking with a smile . . . one translucent, but with compete body, sprinting up a stairwell.