Ya, I suspect it was in getting my act together, integrating this “intent part” in with the current, that was taking up my time. A lot of work; but it put me in a better understanding. People needed to understand what was up with me, were asking, wondering. I needed a better direction too, for I wasn’t out to be the same. The problem here for the world is the intelligent students like what they see, and don’t have to continue to be a part of the bottom feeder chaos.

It was when I was able to move on from that internalization/externalization dialectic, which was holding me back within some weird persona, low level of interpretation, into that interactive sense of a field of meaning and knowledge, that I made the big leap. Extensive. Real meanings, true identity . . . Wow!

There is a real reason for it all. I needed a truer orientation within life, not just this crazy stuff. Judging by what was going on around me, I had to do this.

Also, like I said, those with an anonymous, external tack, tended to be out of wack, for they didn’t really know me, like a real intimate friend would, and were missing the truer aspects, feelings, etc. When we are together things can happen in a mutually interesting way.

So, I was thinking of “me.” Hmm . . . this is that intrinsic element, I suspect. And my context was one’s Life Worlds within the Greater Worlds. Where I’m grounded.

Got it!

So, I moved up my understanding of that “externalization,” “colloquial psychology.” Its there, but not related to the higher levels, or even sanity! I moved along with my life, my paths and understanding . . . the, “what about me?”

I was hitting higher levels, experiences. Likewise, certain dreamers were playing the game here; but there they weren’t following the evolution of understandings I was having, or the themes I was interested in. It wasn’t a shared compendium here. The experiences were coming from touching upon the beyond, spontaneous, unique, not from the colloquial musings within these lower worlds, that you were trying to complete. A different source.

These levels of interpretation, there’s more to it than these down to earth perspectives, and “personality.” Its not just an ordinary simple description, symbol, being concrete; but it can be related to creativity, intelligence, imagination. Not just “what is,” but evolutionary, uplifting.

There are personal issues: you hear a lot of, like, “I don’t understand.” People get trapped within this given framework . . . “in their head.” You could get someone like Alan Watts say, when you get out of your head and see the world; “It Exists!” “Existence.” Its a pristine world, alive, energetic, colorful . . . clarity!

There are other directions possible. Sanity. The Sacred.

Ultimately, there is an even higher level of functioning, that reaches beyond this level, influence, of the “construct “ . . . Intent!

You’ve seen me picking up another thread, other than the typical one’s, since I know of the higher functioning. It wasn’t some kind of social expression that needed to be added to, interpreted: I was poking my nose into those further elements, the interactive field of meaning and knowledge, the ground. I was getting my own returns!

Changes of context:

In the original ways, I didn’t seem to know much more than the inner world: it was like I was in a extending upward room, going very high. I thought I should get out of this: then I was like spider man amongst all these upreaching colorful skyscrapers. In another situation, but with a hardened mood, I turned that inner room into a rectangular fortress room.

I was going to bed, and it was like I was going over all of the feeling associated with that, like the covers, room, etc. An image came in of a dirty chair: as I focused on that, I saw a youthful face hungered down under the covers. A further context? Likewise in another situation, I looked at a woman, in the distance: I got a reflection back, of myself, in a rectangular glass door, looking like my smiling truck!

There was a situation in which I was in “mom’s room, house.” Lee came in there, scoping it out. There were open holes with air flowing through, like furnace ducts . . . energies? After a while, Lee went into a dark square, and stopped. I asked mom where Lee was, and it was something like she is in her “tupi” . . . teepee? I left this situation by going on to the “roof” of it, top. It was like a cool Star Wars scene, with its colorful sets, and a unique vehicle, like some interdimensional kind of motorcycle, which I hopped on. I was a bit more there too, myself, how I looked . . . a newer level, personage, moving on.

“Madame Blavatsky in her enormous book, The Secret Doctrine (1888), states that the ‘noumenon can become a phenomenon on any plane of existence only by manifesting on that plane through an appropriate basis or vehicle’” (2012: 20).

Moore, David J.. Evolutionary Metaphors (p. 62). John Hunt Publishing. Kindle Edition.

Specking myself. Her two too. Its important for me to get along with my own evolutions of understanding and themes. I got to stand on my own two feet. I don’t need those “whatevers.” They are not SEERS!!! There are unique presentations coming in that are relevant to me.

The point is, I can move things along, in a down to earth, or an enhanced way. The area though was by the Civic Center, close to where I lived on 8 Street . . . I first encountered the black there! Making more of it now.