The most your ideas of separation was may of been between the social presentation and the inner individual. I got it going way deeper, and ending with lots of complexities . . . there is more going on out there beyond your avenues, and mine. Its not just the shadow that’s hidden; its our entire multifaceted nature, our wholeness.

It boils down to that I’m not your “symbol,” as I said before. (I’m not my symbol!) There were also a lot of positive experiences occurring though, leading one on, anchoring me within a better reality. It was different.

Originally, I did think I had to be undercover, to “work with intent,” for it was kind of crazy back then. Now, I got it integrated, explained, and can use it. It wasn’t like I was hiding out because I had hang-ups and was wanting to do something different: it was more like I was not relating to your externalizing ways, at any one time.

Not your “role” either, I guess.

Ultimately, I worked my past the typical social dialectic of internalization/externalization interpretation, anonymous and hypothetical, which was dragging me down, to finding my place, position within that greater sense of meaning and connection within the universe. That’s it, what I had to do! It was a total relief. So, whatever I was working on, writing down, was relevant to that situation, ongoing evolution, change.

The Real Stuff comes from somewhere else.

This idea of separateness . . . in our beliefs . . .

‘Let us regard a little more closely the Biblical image of the garden.
Its name, Eden, signifies in Hebrew “delight, a place of delight,” and our own English word, Paradise, which is from the Persian, pairi-, “around,” daeza, “a wall,” means properly “a walled enclosure.” Apparently, then, Eden is a walled garden of delight, and in its center stands the great tree; or rather, in its center stand two trees, the one of the knowledge of good and evil, the other of immortal life. Four rivers flow, furthermore, from within it as from an inexhaustible source, to refresh the world in the four directions. And when our first parents, having eaten the fruit, were driven forth, two cherubim were stationed (as we have heard) at its eastern gate, to guard the way of return.
Taken as referring not to any geographical scene, but to a landscape of the soul, that Garden of Eden would have to be within us. Yet our conscious minds are unable to enter it and enjoy there the taste of eternal life, since we have already tasted of the knowledge of good and evil. That, in fact, must then be the knowledge that has thrown us out of the garden, pitched us away from our own center, so that we now judge things in those terms and experience only good and evil instead of eternal life — which, since the enclosed garden is within us, must already be ours, even though unknown to our conscious personalities. That would seem to be the meaning of the myth when read, not as prehistory, but as referring to man’s inward spiritual state.” p.26,27

Myths To Live By; Joseph Cambell; Arkana; 1993

Ahh . . . A walled garden of delight, two trees at the center, one of the knowledge of good and evil, and the other of immortal life, with four rivers leading to the four directions . . . this sorts it out for me. Its a Mandala. Back to Jung.

Those two trees, sounds like they symbolize our  two modes of consciousness, divisive rationality, and intentionality . . . ego and the wholeness.
Those poor Romans trying to be Holy to have everlasting life, lol. Ultimately, there’s room for various perspectives, “judgments.”
There’s ways to get both halves working together. As I would say, going past our filters, models of the world, there is “A mutual arising of Self and existence.” More recently, I would say we are “An intrinsic Self, entwined within the universe, in an interactive field of meaning and knowledge.”

Even with the world tree, Yggdrasill, there were two families of Gods who were warring, the AEsir who were more heavenly, and the Vanir who were more down to Earth. Sounds familiar, heh?

“The AEsir family contains mainly gods of consciousness, war, and government, the Highest and Holy Gods of Consciousness, of shaping the universe, and ultimate potential. The ruling god of the Northern tradition is Odin.
The Vanir are mainly concerned with fertility and natural, worldly processes and cycles. The Rulers of the Vanir are Freja and Freyr (the lady and the Lord).” p.34

The Runes Workbook: A Step-by-step Guide to Learning the Wisdom of the Staves; Leon D. Wild; Thunder Bay Press, 2004.

The Lady and the Lord, fertility, the garden . . . hmm . . . “evil” in the Biblical system . . . a battle though.