As far as this people stuff goes, with their models of the world, this nexus of the internalization/externalization dialectic . . . we’re moving from the apparent here too, for it is an abstraction as well, to the more intrinsic, real, authentic . . .

This abstraction, its more than just an idea; its a form, and rather than just playing with the shadows, or trying to be good, we’re becoming more extended, multifaceted . . . blossoming into a Greater Reality of form. We are not stuck to one aspect of person-hood that needs to be pruned, shaped up: there are other parts to us, greater parts, that can be assumed, taken on. There are many options to identity. Rather than just one facet of the jewel, there are many. Context. We are like a small part of a jig saw puzzle, with interconnections with the other parts, the bigger picture, this greater multifaceted situation enhancing our typical orientation. This is where the real stuff is coming from.

There’s two different stories here: if one is in separate mode, there’s the ego and the nasty. This may be viewed as differentiation; but if anything, it may also mean we are dividing oneself off from essential parts of oneself. If one is in interconnected mode, taking on a new approach, its about moving towards the enhanced and multifaceted. Besides the “colloquial ways,” there are the real ways. Unfortunately, I had to find them. So, there’s the big concern of “what’s up.” I’ve been motivated to extend into this more multifaceted reality with its enhanced creativity and meaningfulness.

This is all noted when one moves out of one’s passivity, separate mode, and interconnects, becomes activated. Moving out of “automatic.”

One wonders what to do within all these situations . . . not just get involved, play the games . . . ultimately, one needs to be more “discerning.” There’s some real ways, orientations, goals. There’s a truer reality to stand by.

There’s modes of optimal functioning here that one can use as a standard. They kept me going, orientated, over the years.

So, in retrospect, the idea of the “apparent” sounds like a good starting point: for instance, the “public presentation” versus the “private,” as far as personhood goes. I began learning about that in English 30, concerning characterization, around 18 years old. It got me going, once I was given the idea: “Maybe there is something else I should consider.” It makes one wonder why there is the public internalization/externalization dialectic, hey? One of the main axioms we are getting here is of, “The little guy in trouble with the machine, or of the situation” . . . noticed that when those around me weren’t expecting something to come out of me. Another axiom is of them worrying about me wanting to have a “bigger ego instead.” The point is though it can also be approached from various levels: as said before, for this is also an abstraction, besides the concrete physical, people stuff. The young lad was beginning to think! There’s evolutionary, maturing possibilities as well, further levels of development.

The issue for me was to work out how this abstraction works, and also deal with the issues. Since most were in separate mode, there were many issues here, conflicts, and not much of a help. Though there were changes in store for me, and if they thought I was just fiddling around, by the time I was 19, I discovered Colin Wilson, uncovering new directions. Intentionality! I could focus, literally. I was bringing in the enhanced! There are truer paths for this opening up process.

So, the “personality only” thing was a bit of a roadblock back then. If we described ourselves something like; we’re “self-aware and abstracted;” there would have been more potentials, a greater reality possible.

“When both eyes are looking at things of the world it is with vision directed outward. Now if one closes the eyes and, reversing the glance, directs it inward and looks at the room of the ancestors, that is the backward-flowing method.”

Chongyang, Wang. The Secret of the Golden Flower: A Chinese Book of Life (Kindle Locations 177-179). Murine Press. Kindle Edition.

“Master Lu-tsu said, since when has the expression “circulation of the light” been revealed? It was revealed by the “True Men of the Beginning of Form””(Kuan Yin-hsi).

Chongyang, Wang. The Secret of the Golden Flower: A Chinese Book of Life (Kindle Locations 165-167). Murine Press. Kindle Edition.

The beginning of form . . . hmmm.

“The real world is an enchanted place, full of magical powers waiting to be used. And, as the alchemists understood, the anima mundi is a creative force: “it is the artist, the craftsperson, the ‘inner Vision’ which shapes and differentiates the prime matter, giving it form.”(14)

Anima Mundi: Awakening the Soul of the World Published in Sufi Journal, Issue 67, Autumn 2005 Llewellyn Vaughan-Lee, page 4.

The Life World within the Greater World . . .

Energy and form . . . ?

“An intrinsic self, entwined within the universe, in an interactive field of meaning and knowledge.”

My rule of thumb, for this connection with form, was with intent and the figure/ground. From here, it was easy to see, there is the possibility for change, other parts, interrelated parts, context, the greater, and the ground per se. This is an active mode, and if one is unaware of this function, which most are, one gets stuck in one passive aspect, separate mode, and we get our typical psychologies here. Change is difficult from that point, and what’s good or bad is troublesome, for that one little part. So, like in a James Bond movie, when one is trapped in that fun house maze, one can escape and move on and out with our higher functioning, and circumvent all that. In the past, I thought I could short-circuit the processes you were trying to do, or thought you were doing. Now I know its just natural, the way to go.

As far as this psychology goes, its “where one is at.” It is a system of knowledge, our Life World within the Greater World. There’s much more going on, than in just one aspect of distinct personality in a body with an outside world; we are multidimensional entities with many more possibilities, multifaceted. With the other stuff coming in, its why we dream, and why there’s many experiences, “out there,” that break the rules. There’s enhanced understandings, meanings possible, contributing to our little parts.

Occasionally, there are those core movements, an activation, a new foci . . . a new scene, self, picture. Engaging this further self, it was I was like that small child again, my mom’s hand balancing mine at first, as I began to walk over this rolling soft terrain, then later running over these other structures, as if I was testing myself in this new locale, like being in a playground. Recently, I had a related experience, as if I was struggling to hold and balance a bunch of black pipes, or vacuum cleaner wands, in my hands, symbolically dealing with complex issues.

I had some concerns about those externalizing the issues. I had some typical reactions of anger, as if I suddenly turned into a angry humanoid dragon, walking away, looking back. The issues can also become complex here, but I noticed to my surprise there is an aspect of myself that is independent of this all, connected to the higher ways, but observing what’s going on, as if I was an intelligent looking species of alien watching this all chaotic stuff unfold, from his clear space, with a smile on its face.

Sometimes one has to try to get these orientations going, but once the ball gets rolling, these core movements can be spontaneous. I woke up one night, restless, but not much happening, then did a little reading. Later, what I read stimulated the vision of this energy body, which looked kind of prickly. Down the line, I also got a glimpse of this lighted rectangular object, perfectly smooth, higher up. These experiences were related to what I was just reading, a wow connection for me. There is an intelligent current orientation possible. Prickly or smooth . . . hmm.

“Keeping the thoughts on the space between the two eyes allows the light to penetrate. Thereupon, the spirit crystallizes and enters the center in the midst of conditions. The center in the midst of conditions is the lower Elixir-field, the place of energy (solar plexus).”

Chongyang, Wang. The Secret of the Golden Flower: A Chinese Book of Life . Murine Press. Kindle Edition.

Sometimes things are going more easily in one’s life, and it felt like while I looked around into those higher realms, enlarged spaces were opening to my glances as I panned around.

There was a pop-up, switch, something came in. It wasn’t related to anything personal at the moment, so it was unique and spontaneous. A luminous teepee, and surrounds. A Sacred vision? Sometimes things can be lit up.