Most of us have intuited that there is something “more” to the life we live, and the world around us. Realizing this is fairly difficult if we start from the typical concrete version of ourselves and reality: ie., “what is, is.” Change is not easy within this interpretation: I suspect this is why we have that situation, that addition of the negative compliment, to any of the ideas, or positions, we have of what’s up. When you’re stuck, that’s about all you can get anyways; though it seems to be the way to more. I pretty much got something else going though, when I realized we “attend” to the world. There’s some optimums. When things come into focus, they are more colorful, clearer; and one becomes pulled more together as well. I even took this a step further, realizing we’re also within an abstraction. I used the figure/ground as a rule of thumb: it works for a modern, western person. There can be another kind of focus, movement of consciousness here, that goes “somewhere else,”  beyond the apparent, moving beyond the typical. We’re a part of the whole and there’s many other potential connections. Its evolutionary.

I tend to write about what happens when I’m involved with these deeper modes of attention, connection/interconnection.

In the typical apparent reality, there can be a lot of stuff going on. When people are trying to control things externally, I view that with askance. But even in all this chaos, conflict, the intrinsic motions are still there and can arise. So, I was considering myself instead. It was like I was snooping around; and as I looked in a certain direction, it was like someone saw that and looked back. It was me! A part of myself, my essential self? New for me. Likewise, in another experience, I had this thought: I could look like “this,” along with an associated image of myself. I noted I was dressed in a certain way. In both cases there were good feelings; and this self, me, was more optimum.

When there was a more conflicted time, and had a variety of things to consider within myself, I put my attention in an separate position, distinct from the issues; but considered them, like from above. There was a unique change within me. It was like a transformion into a young mountain goat, working his way across a rocky mountainous terrain. I could feel my four legs securely planted on that uneven ground, as I surely moved along. Even more uniquely, a huge woman spirit presence appeared, and came over and gave this little goat a big hug!